Now, before I get on with this review, I just want to say that this will be *slightly* emotional. And forgive me if I get a bit deep there. That said, let’s get to the review!
Rating: 3.75 stars (???)
I am learning that a rating of 1 to 5 stars for a book is not fitting. At the beginning of the book, I would’ve given it 2 stars, but as I reached the end, I would’ve given it 4. So, it evens out to 3.75. Logically.
But really, it doesn’t. Because there are parts of this book that I found ridiculous. There are parts of this book that I only found marginally good. There are parts of this book that I found amusing. Then there are parts of this book that reached me in ways I cannot explain.
It has been so long since a book has touched me in this way.
This book is not perfect. Far from it. There were many flaws – in writing, plot, and general events.
But that is not what is important.
What is important is that the main character was real. She was real, and flawed, and weak, and strong. The main character reminded me of myself.
At the beginning, I laughed at her weakness. At her ridiculousness. At her trust. But, as I continued, I realized something: That is what human beings are like. We are weak. We are ridiculous. We trust when we shouldn’t. But that is what makes us human.
We are not immediately strong at birth. We change. Evolve. Grow. And that is exactly what the main character, Vhalla, did. She was so weak at the beginning – but I should not have laughed because in that situation, I most likely would have acted the same way. The way she acted was not necessarily weak; she was thrust out of her normal life and into a world she had never known. Into a world she had once (and at the time still) hated. So, you cannot expect someone to act strong and powerful when that happens. Because if we’re being honest here – if a character acts strong and powerful after being thrown into such a situation, then it is not real. As much as we tell ourselves that we are not afraid, we are. If a person acts strong and powerful in such a situation, then that person is pretending. But that is how we make it through life. By pretending.
So, when we are forced to see the truth – forced to acknowledge how we truly feel on the inside, we shy away. We laugh it off. We shouldn’t.
In so many books the main character is strong and powerful and never weak, but that is our attempt at lying to ourselves. That is the way we wish to be. That is the way we are not.
It is wonderful to wish. But we shouldn’t be afraid of ourselves. We should face our weaknesses, or fears, our flaws – head on.
We are human. And we should accept that.